the chosen path?

I am standing at a crossroads or say about a mile up from one..... I am debating and trying to figure out what I want.
Homebirth.....
or
hospital birth....
One is more familiar but more interventions. One is more unknown or rather say less fancied upon by many. I want natural but not sure this is possible in a hospital. I want to feel safe but not sure this is possible in a homebirth, for me. If I have a traumatic birth at home will I feel like MY home is where I would rather not be. Because of the haunting memories. It would be easier to stay away form the hospital for those memories. Yet the hospital is more known for making these horrible memories. OR is that because mor emoms birth at hospitals and not at home. BUT I know all the buildings and dealings of choosing the homebirthing path, your healthier, happier, and more in tune to your body. Is the hospital a more easier way out? or in the end harder? My gut tells me harder but safer.... is that possible. how can that be? I should present a list of loaded questions to my reg hospital midwife and homebirth midwife. See what I get. See what I feel is right.
At times I wish I was ignorant. wish I didnt care so much. ....